Then God…

I am currently reading 5 Habits of a Woman Who Doesn’t Quit (by Nicki Koziarz) with the Proverbs 31 ministries OBS, we’re currently on week 4 of 5. It’s been a great book so far, but I wanted to post about one of the chapters from last week.


The book is broke down into 5 habits derived from the book of Ruth. Now, I love Ruth. She is pretty awesome but hello it’s a short book, right? 4 chapters, it’s a short book so when I learned that the #5HabitsBook was written based on lessons learned from the book of Ruth my attention was caught.

I was all in but then when I got to chapter 5 called “This Dream Is On Fire” I really knew this book was for me! Between cute real life stories and hard truths Nicki talked in chapter 5 about how we measure life in “before and afters” moments.

Here are a few of mine…

Before we moved to Ormond

Before we got divorced.

Before I started running.

After I Jim graduated RT school.

After this amazingly hard moment.

After we moved.

But then Nicki brought a simple, even previously spoken by many of us, thought to the light. “Then God” She reminded us-me-to not only see where God has worked but also to acknowledge His movement.

Our marriage fell apart but THEN God restored it.

We were so unsure of what was next but THEN God shed some light on our path.

Noah struggled each and every day to barely pass but THEN God brought us to Ormond and gave him Katie as his amazing teacher. 

Our “then God” moments changed everything. The hurt becomes praise-able. The loss becomes bearable. The distance becomes reachable.

My prayer for each of us is that we can see and grasp onto the “then God” moments and allow them to teach us. 

What are some of your then God moments? Did you learn from them? Did you share them? Nicki doesn’t suggest we share them, but I do. When children do well at a test and they achieved something great the want to share it, right? Well, God is achieving something great in you so share it! 

**Side note: Miss Katie, I want you to know that we are forever thankful that God used you as part of Noah’s (and ours) then God story.


Brazen Launch Day Book Review

Happy Book Birthday, Brazen! Today Brazen launches into the world, showing up and playing her part in helping all that are bold enough, brazen enough, to open her pages and enter in.

I have learned to love launch days even more now because I get to play some small part in the process.

It might just be me and my weirdness, but does anyone lay in bed “writing” in their head what they may want to say later? Gosh, I hope I’m not the only one! Last night as I was mentally prewiring (which, by the way, rarely ever works because I forget what I pre-wrote) but I was so pleased with the direction this review was taking. And yet, here I sit going… “what was it I wanted to say?”

Welcome to the inner workings of my head. Scary stuff.

With my pink highlighter in tow I was reading to dig deeply into Leeana Tankersley’s Brazen with high hopes of learning and growing as I jotted down thoughts and highlighted the things that jumped out to me, the thoughts and quotes that spoke to some part of me, the Brazen part of me. Brazen in no way disappointed! I’ve spent more time self-reflecting with this book than I have with any other.

Each chapter called me deeper into my “Created Center” which Leeana says this about our Created Center “I believer this untouchable place inside you is the part of your being where God himself put his hands in the wet concrete of your existence and said “You are formed in my image” and “it is good.”” Don’t you just love that?!

Sure, I already knew I was created in His image and sure I knew that I was created for more than blending in but it wasn’t until Brazen came into my life that I realized that I was out living out my “God-given Wild” or casting my net into the world with any purpose. I wish I could say I was, but I wasn’t. And how do I know I wasn’t? Because of the past 2 years Jim has been begging me to start writing a book. I mean, BEGGING but I keep blowing him off. Yep. Sure do. Why? Because I thought my Brazen color was beige, to blend in and just kind of exist. Because he knew long before I did that my color is more of vibrant purple than beige!

I am sure you’re wondering what in the world I am talking about, right? In chapter 2 Leeana gives us the definition of brazen, which is “without shame”. Sounds good, right? To live without shame is almost dream like. Because if I live without shame then I have to lay down these things and pick up my brazen and well… I’m not THAT bold. But to be sitting here, writing this to you, then I guess I am a little brighter than beige. You see, in Brazen it is suggested that we each have a brazen color. A color that shares who we are. A color that pops up and shines. We were challenged to find our brazen color by closing our eyes and thinking about what we imagined when we saw brazen. Your color might be your favorite color or it may not. Mine is.

My Brazen color is purple which probably not does not shock anyone. Purple calls me. It soothes me. It pushes me.

As I reflecting on my Brazen color I took a look around my space in the house. I don’t share my color much because I living in a house with 3 other people that do not consider purple to be as lovely as I do. But I did find is within my favorite places you find my purple-my Brazen. My Bible is purple. My sheets are purple. My notebook is purple. My pen is…purple. Within a life of “boy colors” my color shines through in it’s own little ways, just like I do in a large world that I don’t always feel like I fit in.

How can you get your hands on this amazing book? It’s available on Amazon as well as anywhere else that books are sold.

Normally I do a launch day give away, but this time I just did not get this blog out on time. But I still would love to gift someone with a copy. So, e-mail me at telling me what your Brazen color is and we’ll enter you in to win a copy of the book. I’ll randomly select one winner by Friday, April 8th.


You Are Precious! (and Breaking Busy Book Winner!)

You alone created my inner being.
You knitted me together inside my mother.
I will give thanks to you
because I have been so amazingly and miraculously made.
Your works are miraculous, and my soul is fully aware of this.

Psalm 139:13-14

As a child my father told me regularly that I was not his and he simply found me under a rock. Maybe I was just a too sensitive child, or maybe not, but either way it hurt and scarred me for years. My worth was tied up in those words. If I wasn’t enough for my own Dad then how could I possibly be enough for anyone else either?

About two years ago I woke up to notes all over our apartment from Jim. Sweet reminders of how much I am loved and cherished. He spoke over me things that the Lord wanted me to soak in, things I needed to hear so chains could be broken and healing could be let fully in.

That morning after I made my breakfast I went to check my e-mail on my Mac, when I opened it I found another note. This one though wrecked me.


I was completely undone with these simple eight words.

If you know me well enough you’ve heard this story before because I love to tell people the truth that I am more those hurtful words would have me to believe.

I am the daughter of a King,

I am His righteousness.

I am loved

I am redeemed.

I am enough.

And so are you.

I didn’t do anything to be any one of those things any more than I ever did anything for my Dad to not want to claim me.

You may have felt like I have at different times in your life, like you aren’t enough but you are. You are more than enough. At the feet of Jesus it really does not matter what others think or how they feel about you. All He sees is his love for you. A love that no earthly love can ever match up to.

If you need to, remind yourself of that daily, hourly, by the minute, or even by the second. Make post-its reminding you of how incredibly important you are and post them to anything that stands still. You were loved long before you were born and will be loved long after you are gone by your Creator. You were brought to this earth to serve a purpose. To be His masterpiece and bring Him glory through your beautiful life. And I know, life might not always feel beautiful, but when you stop and look closely we can see the worth and beauty in it you are fearfully and wonderfully made.


Now, I believe it is time to name a winner of a copy of Breaking Busy by Alli Worthington!

I am so very pleased to announce the winner of the Breaking Busy book giveaway is Barbara W. You will be receiving your copy of Breaking Busy from me (via amazon) on the release day! Thank you everyone that liked and shared the post!